having look alike fun~~

lifes goes on

Back again~~

i realised something.. things change.. wasn't like b4.. myself, my family.. everyday back home will be juz qurral n scoldings.. 17 years of my life.. changes at the age of 15.. totally... from the day i came to a new school.. i should have realised.. things will be changing.. lots.. i started to be more lazy.. ever expected?? a gal like me... lazy.. at home.. but when in school i am not.. only during lessons.. wants to sleep... becos i dun understand e lesson i started to be lazy.. lazy.. becos e leson is boring.. i started to be lazy.. always like this.. always.. my class always gives me problem.. always.. although now alot better.. but i should have knew.. whatever others tol me all just lies, tricks, maybe shouldn't trust them in e first place.. what should i do.. i have friends.. lots of sweet friends.. can only survied in the afternoon.. what about morning lessons?? becos of them... i relised that hearing i was love was jus a trick, just a game , realise that i shouldn't make any move, realised tat knows nothing is lots better than knew something and to wait.. wait.. waited, but realied this guy was juz a trick, that guy was jus a dream...





my home.. my family.. i am staring to lose faith to be happy... bet i will move out at the age of 20 ba.. NO! i WAN to move out at the age of 20~~ I WAN!!! i dont want to care much le.. dun wan.. i wan to cut down my expenses... wan to... save money!! go diet..!!! always will say only.. how am i going expect myself to do it?? i wan to go taiwan.. i wan to meet him.. him... becos of him.. how i wish he is by my side... how i wish.. becos of himm.. i hope to get a boyfriend... i wan to gain experience.. to learn how to love.. to learn wat will happen in a relationship.. to learn lots of thins more than i learn from my friends n society...to learn to love... love someone wholeheartly..

mY bAdaE!!

its my birthdaYY!! i mean.. on e 17~~ hehehe.. but becos of hmwork.. unable to update profile~ ^^ anywan.. on tat day was a wonderful day ever in my lifE!!! 17.. my fav number~ 17 , 1 and 7 is always around me ~~ these numbers R my luCky numBER!!!



On e 16 jan my wonderful sweet friend help me to celebrate my birthday~ it was totally a wonderful surprise!!! happy happy happy~~



b4 17 jan, i wrote to Yes 933 FM n hope to be read out on my birthday... and it was read out!!! it was totally wonderful!! my friend helps me to record down.. so i will grabbed from him n put it down here!! those who nv heard.. enjoy.... hehehehehe

他，并不是我的男友(虽然有点希望早点想要有男友，但不想因为想或好奇，就在一起，放弃了真正幸福的滋味 ^^) ，所以请大家别误会^^

看了此人的部落格，觉得自己好迟钝。。。在他世界，是那么的辛苦，那么的委屈。。总觉得很心疼。前两天，我却没好好问他的日子过得是否平凡，平静，也根本没顾虑他的感受，就投怀诉苦，说自己有多么的糟，上班日子有多么的烦。而且还希望如果他来到本地，我一定向他投怀送抱的。。。
想也而知，上班不就是一个样儿，还能多劲松啊~ -_-

还没看他部落格前，只要有上网聊天，好多次，觉得自己会撑不下去，好希望“你”就在我身边。这个希望不停的在脑海转，就算只是安慰，我也认了，因为我只想看到你美丽温柔的笑容，为我加油的笑脸。。。

以前，有段日子，你因为感情方面出了问题，我帮你解围。。。可是解围后，两年多，都是你在鼓励我，安慰我，帮助我，为我打气，给我力量，奉献一个温暖又温柔的笑脸，动摇着我。每次的笑脸，就好像在告诉我，“别怕孤单，我在这”。。

我想，是时候到我为你办点事，所以，请期待圣诞节的平安夜吧！！^_^

my workSz~~

I loVE mY new job!!! its totally different from my 1st one... first 1 was at fairprice.. but all aunties~~ uncleS~~.. no much haPpineSS in thERe~~ but my new job was totally wonderful!! i love my colleges~ make new wonderful friends~~ i'm really lucky to have them around!! some of the part-timers love Fahrenheit(fei lun hai) as much as i did.. every time... when theres new posters wanted to be throw or being over paste, we"Fahrenheit fans", will quickly fight over poster~~ i fight for 3 wonderful new posters.. hehehehe.... we always will be high~ really high~~ we really enjoy our job... is tiring though, but we just love it!!!! although we juz met each other at the workplace, but whenever we starts to chit-chat, have break-time together,we seems to know each other for quite a long time!!!



hmmm

to thanks for those wonderful memories, I'm going to prepare something for everyone on Christmas~~ i love Christmas!!!! they juz really gonna get sth from me!!! ^^ nite nite



-lin-

i treasure every moment i spend with all of you -^_^-

simple holiday

my holidays are just as simple as any other single students
work.. school...sleep... eat...shop..com..phone..
this what is did the past two weeks of my holidays
i wish there will be some difference.. something really unique... so what i went to oversea? is just a 4 days nebouring trip... so what i went to concert? 4 hours for sitting there... yah.. enjoyed the show... but... couldn't actually have real meet up with my idolZzz...does wishes really come true? isit really if we pay a price( reasonable one of cos), wishes will be sure to be true? isit wishes is just equally to goals?

goal
is a thing that you hope it will come true...BUT YOU HAVE 2
do your job, do your part in life, be resbonsible, be hardworking
then become successful
this is goal

wishes??
is it... put two hands together...fingers crossed...hands on the chest...look at the sky... to god...
or to the "first star you see tonight".. and say out softly your wishes.. or say in your heart your wishes...
or even...toss a coin into a waterfall," lucky waterfall", put two hands together...fingers crossed...hands on the chest.. and say out softly your wishes.. or say in your heart your wishes...
this is what lots of people do..

why cant just
things go in natural courses, but in a unique way... ....
im lost in words.......i just hope or even wish... this holiday will have something different.....

helps? I felt im flirty....

Singapore hits award was held yesterday~
it was totally wonderful..
before my friend and i went there.. we actually try to be as early to prepare ourselves into our best grooming we can be.. we did not know where or even how the indoor stadium looks like until we reached there.. i was thinking whether to bring or not to bring a jacket along... as is located "indoor", i assumed it will be cold... but how cold will be.. who knows?? ^^


i finally decided not to bring any, reaching my friend house only with a bag of necessary items... i wore a skirt, not a mini one of cos.. I'm not suitable in wearing one yet, as i don't look good in it unless I'm thin enough to fit in one of those wonderful ones... a V neck Tshirt for top, adding some decor on my T, it doesn't look as plain as before... instead i look really a gentle gal but still plum of cos, it was kinda not like myself abit... i can be gentle at times, but i am always the hyper active person no matter who i am with...a necklace changes everything... i wore a necklace i love, and to my surprise, the gentle gal i am turns to be someone more high in spirit... without e necklace, i seems to be a gal who is outrageous shy...


i was hyper excited about the event ... so when we reached there, it was about an hour before the event started.... buying drinks in was a great idea for our throat in later part, but it was later known to be prohibited in, told by the F&B sellers... ending, we had to finish our drinks outside before entering... with bloated stomach i have, me and my friend went into the Q as early as we could.. to our surprise.. there wasn't much people in e Q...


We found our a month decided seats, play with the gift given, we just has too much fun before the event starts...the whole event was extreme wonderful... i saw my idol...my fave band, so on and on... then i saw one particular guy, who actually gave me a smile , a smile that was the warmest one i ever get... i am sensitive with smiles, i can feel either is out of one's heart or not... This smile was a miracle, smile that was once given on the Jan 28 of this year... my hearts starts to pump, i felt to cry.. but thinking, wasn't i already in love with someone else? through whole 4 hours i kept my eyes on him most of the times, i realised i am in love with two guys... I'm confused.. what is a crush? what is a love? whats make a crush into love? or a love into a crush? i hate it... i saw that guy singing, but i couldn't have the chance to know him, i confess to another guy, although rejected, i did not feel of giving up...what am i going do? what was i thinking all this while?


is it because someone told me that is totally impossible to confess to actors, singers, it is just a dream??.. i used to have thought of changing this fate, turning it to possibility... till now,this thinking is not reaching dead end yet... in between , i found myself to be in love with another guy, with lots of gals would say, is a rare catch... his secure attract me lots, lots till i wish there was someone like him to be there for me, he doesn't mind at all how gals look... ^^.. - - but.... i am alot confuse now... i wish there is someone to help...

i asking now...



help???

2 things

-_- I'm not feeling good today.. been thinking about e thing i write to a guy i like... he gave me a rejection... but still thought alot about him... everyday...always feel empty... he once said... i was juz a crush on him... will get over soon.... and too.. said that i cannot look at guys only outer vision and movements....( e thing i did... but another point.. he is a great guy.. did i pick e wrong guy ???????????)

I'm hurt..although he stills speaks to me like normal after things happen... i still feel the hurt...picking up every pieces he broke that very day ....he has no one in like yet... I'm been encouraging myself that i still have a chance... he can't get one for some personal reasons he told me...i told my best friend... she asked... '' so you want to wait for him?"... it struck my head... my mind went empty... i don't know what to do? i don't wish that it just happens to be a guy with great looks who looks gentle? I'm just finding someone with great secure and is gentle...is hard to find this guy... i thought i found one... no... i did found one... but is it really just a crush or something else??? AH!!!! I'm confuse... totally... i hate those hard feelings... always.. i just hope that i could find someone to lean over for everything... just hopes this ends... i wrote to him that i knew in e first place that we are not possible.. yes.. i knew it long ago... wrote to him is just hopping that miracles happens...but impossible.. my outer vision is not good... fat and ugly... gave up ???? or not??? I'm confuse.... >(>X<)<





my exams is not what i expected... is not... been away for school for 2 days.. ending up only got back 4 out of 7 subjects.... failed geo(is under combined... with social studies((passed)) ) and over all, failed my combined human. ....failed my POA too.. cant expected too... the rest my best is only chinese.. the one and only A1... i have the feel that he is having a high expectation in me... althought is just a feeling....felt i disappoint him...

hope my overall end of year resluts will pass everything!!! everything... ........ blank... blank.. blank... is all the words i can think.... his name.. his name... is all the things i can think............

I ever believe in

Thre's a thing i ever know
is friendship that comes and goes
we never meet
or even met (before)
we sometimes know each other
only through internet

True friendship never crossed religion
This is what i always believe
As we meet up through
or pass by millions people
and we contiue to learn to forgive

I treasure my friendships
as much as i treasure my family
I believe in my buddies
who started to have friendship
with me

I never feel lonely
nor depressed
And i have to thank god
who give me friends

Some tips on friends problems

we may jealous each other at times
because of beauty
because of rich
because of character
we may cause losing of friends

tip on looks:
love yourself, never thinks yourself to be ugly or proud to be beautiful
all faces are gift by god
all outside looks are gift by god
but also do not thinks "if ones says so, what for i should care about my looks? what for should i take care of my skin?"
to girls:
if u are plump(fat) go on diet
i mean diet do not mean skip meals,
i mean go
on exercises, play outdoor games
want to skip meals? why not try to fill your skipped meals with fresh fruits?
avoid having

fruits: longan, lychee, durains, as they are high in sugar content
grapes are still OK, but try not to have too much ( middle high in sugar content too)
water melons are still OK, but also not too much of it( high in water content), very suitable for thirst

food: too oily , high in fats and sugar(look out for balance diet pyramid)

try having
fruits: apples, pears, guava, winter melon
food: eg.chicken rice with plain rice,and peeled skin chicken
more vegetables food,(Look out for balance diet pyramid)(Look out for nutrition facts in packed food, can food)(Especially (kcal))
Girl’s average (kcal) is 2000
Boy’s average (kcal) is 2500

if you are thin, yet looks isn’t that good, try on makeup
Ask for tips on other girls on makeup, take extra good care of your skin
ask for specialist if needed.

but please if you have financial problem, do not ask for too much


To boys (guys):
if you are plump:
don't worry guys are the one who can easily slim down
if,you exercise
look out for our diet
look out for your skin

if you are thin:
look out for your skin
don't over look for your outside looks
style yourself
ask for tips from friends


tip on money:
as one says,
when we talk about money, we hurt each other feelings
we are still a teenage,
so if you want money
earn for it!
but never over look your study
if you are a Singaporean, then use your talent , your brain, even your skill to earn the bursary awards, merit awards.

u can even use all your skill , brain and talent to earn money at home
eg, doing art crafts to sell
helping out parents on housework


tip on character:
i cant give you any help on this
because you have to learn it yourself
change your bad character
care for others
be generous at times(not too generous, or else people will think you use your generosity to buy friends.)
put in your best effort in all relationship(remember!! relationship can't be balance by anything, even percentage)
understand more human nature
by looking at your surrounding
look out for people
understand them
you will notice something
they are the same at most times ^^





next episode: some tips on family