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-_- I'm not feeling good today.. been thinking about e thing i write to a guy i like... he gave me a rejection... but still thought alot about him... everyday...always feel empty... he once said... i was juz a crush on him... will get over soon.... and too.. said that i cannot look at guys only outer vision and movements....( e thing i did... but another point.. he is a great guy.. did i pick e wrong guy ???????????)

I'm hurt..although he stills speaks to me like normal after things happen... i still feel the hurt...picking up every pieces he broke that very day ....he has no one in like yet... I'm been encouraging myself that i still have a chance... he can't get one for some personal reasons he told me...i told my best friend... she asked... '' so you want to wait for him?"... it struck my head... my mind went empty... i don't know what to do? i don't wish that it just happens to be a guy with great looks who looks gentle? I'm just finding someone with great secure and is gentle...is hard to find this guy... i thought i found one... no... i did found one... but is it really just a crush or something else??? AH!!!! I'm confuse... totally... i hate those hard feelings... always.. i just hope that i could find someone to lean over for everything... just hopes this ends... i wrote to him that i knew in e first place that we are not possible.. yes.. i knew it long ago... wrote to him is just hopping that miracles happens...but impossible.. my outer vision is not good... fat and ugly... gave up ???? or not??? I'm confuse.... >(>X<)<





my exams is not what i expected... is not... been away for school for 2 days.. ending up only got back 4 out of 7 subjects.... failed geo(is under combined... with social studies((passed)) ) and over all, failed my combined human. ....failed my POA too.. cant expected too... the rest my best is only chinese.. the one and only A1... i have the feel that he is having a high expectation in me... althought is just a feeling....felt i disappoint him...

hope my overall end of year resluts will pass everything!!! everything... ........ blank... blank.. blank... is all the words i can think.... his name.. his name... is all the things i can think............