lifes goes on

Back again~~

i realised something.. things change.. wasn't like b4.. myself, my family.. everyday back home will be juz qurral n scoldings.. 17 years of my life.. changes at the age of 15.. totally... from the day i came to a new school.. i should have realised.. things will be changing.. lots.. i started to be more lazy.. ever expected?? a gal like me... lazy.. at home.. but when in school i am not.. only during lessons.. wants to sleep... becos i dun understand e lesson i started to be lazy.. lazy.. becos e leson is boring.. i started to be lazy.. always like this.. always.. my class always gives me problem.. always.. although now alot better.. but i should have knew.. whatever others tol me all just lies, tricks, maybe shouldn't trust them in e first place.. what should i do.. i have friends.. lots of sweet friends.. can only survied in the afternoon.. what about morning lessons?? becos of them... i relised that hearing i was love was jus a trick, just a game , realise that i shouldn't make any move, realised tat knows nothing is lots better than knew something and to wait.. wait.. waited, but realied this guy was juz a trick, that guy was jus a dream...





my home.. my family.. i am staring to lose faith to be happy... bet i will move out at the age of 20 ba.. NO! i WAN to move out at the age of 20~~ I WAN!!! i dont want to care much le.. dun wan.. i wan to cut down my expenses... wan to... save money!! go diet..!!! always will say only.. how am i going expect myself to do it?? i wan to go taiwan.. i wan to meet him.. him... becos of him.. how i wish he is by my side... how i wish.. becos of himm.. i hope to get a boyfriend... i wan to gain experience.. to learn how to love.. to learn wat will happen in a relationship.. to learn lots of thins more than i learn from my friends n society...to learn to love... love someone wholeheartly..