White Valentine

14 Mar, White Valentine , bright cool sunny day


this day was my worse day of life, well, not totally, but was when nearly e end of the day...
morning stays e same, buy food for my little cute bro, both r on March holidays of cos..
after have to leave my little bro at home for an hr b4 my mum cums back... Y?? wats more?? sch activities.. but this programme was great.. is a reading training programme... wats more interesting?? is held at bugis library and only 2 students of each different school participate... we had games, we had read-aloud thingy.. me and my friend(a guy, pls we r juz classmates) were having fun with the others as we formed into groups of different numbers... my group had total 6 pupils.. including us of cos.. 2 gals n 4 boys.. wow.. i got suai ge in my group.. cool.. hehehe... 2 guys are from Yishun Town Scondary, while another gal and guy are from e NJC(national junior college) .. they were fun loving.. nice ppl too of cos.. we chat, play, we juz have fun as if we were some how met b4...^^

suppose to meet up two guys that evening... 1 was my god rean bro n other was my (ex) friend.. i din tell my bro that i will be bringing a friend too.. Y? wanna give surprise?? cos i dun like tat (ex) friend of mine.. he kept asking me out.. pls.. im not a beauty but oso a plump gal..plus nv been so stick by a guy b4.. i dun like tat guy btw.. sometimes, i even think tat (ex) friend of mine wants me to be in his trap... wats more.. i cant even figures out whether his a Chinese?? Malay?? or indian??? hmmm...so.. (i noe i shoulden) i ask my bro out to help me.. guess wat.. we been god siblings for soooo long.. 2nd time meeting we yet coulden rmb each other faces.. haha..

i should have known.. he was in sch tat day.. tired.. yet he came n find me.. haha.. he reach library before i end my courses... i have things for him anyway.. so, i juz slip away in e middle of e course(anyway he came at about 5.30, while i end my course at 6) , he tol me whr he were... i saw someone like him... but dare not approach... y?? hey.. let me ask u.. if u saw someone lying on e sofa resting, moreover u dunno isit tat person u r looking for... will u approach?? for my case.. i won.. wat if i approach e wrong person?? not becos will be embarrasses, is becos later i will feel guilty approaching a tired person...disturb someone who is resting.. do u think is good?? of cos not rite???

i was trying to approach him 3 times.. cos, i cant find anyone tat look more like my gor.. n his e only one alike.. but with his headphones on.. how???cal him?? too bad his phone low bat.. his cal was been divert for e 5 times i cal...i sms him... wait for his reply.. no one reply... -_-... a guy wearing pink was sitting beside him.. he look at me times as i approach my bro times... then he look back at my bro.. i thought they r together.. i try approach him one last time, but thinking tat bro is on his own.. so tat shoulden be him... then carry his things on my head n thinking maybe his in other levels waiting.. then slowly went back to e multipurpose room which e course was held...

mins later he sms back tat he had to go... he is reaching station soon... i felt anxious to end e couse early.. thinking tat i should slip away first.. but i coulden... it was my group to read aloud... oh dear....after course... i walk to e station with my new friends n classmate... 6.30... my (ex) friend should be reaching soon.. no cals no sms.. fine.. i then sms this (ex) friend of mine... he said to be late for a few mins.. thought he mux be on his way ... cant blame due to peak hours... so i went to change into something casual... who knows.. while walking back to station.. tripped , fell, spring my leg.. ouch...no one came to help.. juz no one... i din cry.. for goodness.. 1st time.. haha..

i ask my friend to sms me or to cal me when he reach.. so while waiting.. i cal up wito bro.. best friend of rean bro.. thinking tat i have to pass rean something tat i made e day b4.. for white valentine... i ask wito bro for rean bro add.. he try to help me get from him but failed... y i dunwan to ask him myself?? well... rean gor is like this.. whenever u got sumthin to ask from him.. he will ask u y... then he start nagging like mothers... but in e end... will he give?? dunno wor... so i rather ask from wito gor... too bad failed.. failed nvm... rean gor cal up n start asking.. ( i noe i shoulden.. sorry) i wasnt honest... i dun felt to be tat time.. i dunno y... but was actually feeling disappointed after hearing wat he said on e phone.. he was out with his friend.. but i rmb he said he was tired.. he was tired.. felt disappointment.. hang up.. less than a min.. i cal my one of my gal friend( erm.. gal de friend... not over tat line).. i tol her bout e (ex) friend.. tat i been waiting for him for 45 mins... she asked me to cal tat ( ex) friend... i did.. yet no one picked up.. twice.. i cal back her n tol her... she said then i sms him instead.. was bout to do tat i received one... it was e (ex) friend... he tol me he couldnt make it... i was being left alone.. all alone... my friend ask me not to get any more interaction with this (ex) friend of mine anymore... ((btw this (ex) friend made me waited for him 2 whole hrs when we first met... becos of him... i have to spend 20+ bucks for my return to home.. i met him after my work.. with his 2 friends..was really late tat time.. passed midnite.. no trains were left...no bus from place we meet to home..))


no whr to go... i bought sumthing my colleague needs n went sum whr else to find food.. chua chu kang.. rean gor place.. chua chu kang..---> lot 1... long time nv go le.. go thr n find some promotion comics from C&C( comics collection)... found some then... but coulden find the food i wan.. Bukit Panjang... Papa Mama place( my god parents who take care of me when i was a few years old tat time.. ) ... thrs bus to return home... so i hop onto e LRT n went to Bukit pangjang... ah~~~ another C&C... found some books again.. z^_^z... ah..dinner.. still no food tat suite me at pretty late.. so i grabbed some drinks n went off home... i din realised i had hold my tears for so long until i started to sob when i reach under my block.. tat disappointment was deep.. really.. deep..

reached home.. no one... i then started doing some planning... I GOING TO SLIM DOWN... i won let guys to fool me round n round again... i hate tat deing fool around times n times.. stepping on me times n time.. i have to turn e world differently this time.. n have to start changing myself...

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